Trying..needing to focus

I love my job. It's not really recession proof, no job is, but it's steady and I'll always be employed. I've been working on this huge project at work and it brings me in contact with a lot of people outside of my office. One girl I've been seeing a lot of is kinda beautiful. She smells good. I love girls that smell good. I guess that much is obvious but I'm sure that there are men out there that like their women to smell bad. If I could only get her to wear glasses...to satisfy my optical fetish.

I was emailing with a coworker and she was telling me how crappy things are at home for her. Is this shit rampant or what? I think I nailed it when I said that the way I feel today is how I felt when I got divorced. I get this foreboding feeling. Like something that I want to happen yet don't want to happen is gonna happen.

After trading emails I came to the conclusion that I don't want to deal with the single life. I'm actually afraid that I might get lonely. I thought I'd never get to that point yet here I am staring it in the face. I've never been one to:

A) Ever be lonely
B) To ever feel lonely

I need to refocus. Maybe I'll take up Gymkata to focus my energy.